Archive for December, 2011
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2011/12/31David McCooey’s Outside
2011/12/15
David McCooey’s first book of poems, Blister Pack, won the Mary Gilmore Award, and was short-listed for four other major Australian literary awards, including the NSW Premier’s Literary Awards. His chapbook of poems, Graphic, was published in 2010. Outside, his third collection has just been published by Salt Publishing.
He is the Deputy General Editor of the prize-winning Macquarie PEN Anthology of Australian Literature (2009), published internationally as The Literature of Australia (2009). He is also the author of a prize-winning critical work on Australian autobiography (Artful Histories, 1996/2009), and numerous book chapters, essays, poems and reviews published nationally and internationally in books, journals and newspapers. His audio poetry (original music, poetry and sound design) has been broadcast on ABC radio, as well as published in various literary journals. He is an associate professor in Literary Studies and Professional and Creative Writing at Deakin University, Victoria.
“Outside is the second full-length collection from the prize-winning poet David McCooey. Outside takes the most basic of categories – day and night, inside and outside – and makes them the source of powerful meditations on the strangeness of our diurnal lives. In the resonant landscapes of these poems, the domestic slides into the universal, the personal becomes the historical, and the cultural is the real. This is a deeply unified work, even as it encompasses reflections on such diverse topics as the number 5, hands, newborn infants, heaven, anger and rock music. The collection also features a number of major sequences, including ‘A Short Story of Night’, and an electrifying response to the films of Stanley Kubrick. The book is also finely balanced in another way: by a generous and unique sense of humour, demonstrated in the Dadaist and hilarious ‘Intermission’. Outside is always unsettling, but it is, too, always humane.”
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“The poems take strength and originality from the way they combine opposites. On the one hand, studies of Kubrick films and animal slaughter, they are straightforwardly fierce; but they achieve their effects in a manner remarkably controlled and subtle.”
– Lisa Gorton
“David McCooey is one of the most controlled and attentive poets writing in Australia. Renowned as a critic as well as a poet, McCooey’s careful study of poetry is shown in his poems, but they never rely only on this learning and consideration of craft. This remarkable book almost liberates an aesthetic, and is in itelf a work of great beauty mixed with moments of biting satire. It’s the wit, the aphorisic turn just when it’s needed, both within the poems and within the timing of the book as a whole. McCooey has become entirely his own poet – genuinely good and essential. Read him.”
– John Kinsella
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Two Figures
(I) Dracula, Retired
He has taken to wearing a silver cross
to help him occupy the mirrors of the world
and tolerate the monotheistic sun
(that plants the crows’ feet near his eyes).
He sometimes feels that he has lived
a hundred years or more, that life’s become
a kind of sickness, and a single kiss would
drain the blood from his adamantine face.
(II) Frankenstein’s Monster, Tourist
He has taken himself away into
the wordless north, where days move
like seasons, and ice and snow are
clean of promises. From here the world
he has left behind begins to look like
one of God’s sins. He divines the greatest
iniquity: that, nameless, he should be
mistaken in name for his creator.
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Whaling Station
In my primitive childhood
the Cheynes Beach Whaling Station
in Frenchman Bay, just outside Albany,
was operational and open to tourists.
My memory gives up very little.
How, out of the dark ocean,
did they find the ocean-coloured bodies of
living whales to turn into pieces? What mysterious
industry was there to turn them into
those pieces? Flenser and Hookman
worked the blubber, while Saw Man and his
steam-driven saw cut the whales’ heads to pieces
small enough to fit into the cookers that
were worked by Digester Operator. It
took two men to straighten the harpoons.
Any ambergris found in a whale was sent
to Scotland for refining. But I don’t
remember any of this. I just remember that
as we watched from the distance, my father
or brother taking photographs, the vast smell
offered an unimaginable and unrelenting intimacy
of disgust. The equipment was not subtle,
though devious and effective enough. We could
not watch for long, though probably long enough to be
told that the whales’ oil, once refined, was used
for special purposes including cosmetics, fine
machinery, and watch mechanisms.
From the gift shop we bought
a piece of tooth which, now slightly
yellowed, sits in my parents’ bookcase.
The station then must have had about four
or five years left in it, closed down as it was
in 1978 by the rising cost of fuel oil.
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An Essay on The Shining
A hotel is not a house.
The length of a corridor
is the length of a mirror halved.
A tricycle articulates
the uncanny difference
between floorboard and carpet.
The Steadicam is a nervous
energy, a kind of music.
The music is a kind of
violence. The violence—when it
comes—is a kind of intimation
of the real thing, like
the stilted dialogue, the
hysterical typewriter (first blue,
then white), and the shadow
of a helicopter on the car
in the film’s opening sequence
(with its synthesised Dies Irae).
The style of the blood
filling the lobby; the archly
symmetrical shots; the
characters caught in reflections;
the seduction of numerology—
all of these are realised
in a struggle with the sincerely
ugly: the drinking, the man
fixed in the labyrinth of his
rage, lost in the Indian
reservation of his long-forgotten
crimes. (The African-American
is also historically accurate).
What becomes of the boy,
we wonder, once we have safely
seen his father’s corpse, frozen
in the achromatic salt
of a pure, factitious snow.
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Eyes Wide Shut
Call out the doctor
and bid him to tell
the difference between
a dead woman and
one living.
Ask him what becomes
of the glittering masks
when we sleep.
Ask, too, if he
knows where his
children go to in
this ritual night.
Lastly, ask whether it is
the outside or the inside
that is beyond reckoning.
When he gets home
his wife will tell him.
There is one thing
between dreaming
and reality—fucking.
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Anger
Hysterical animal banging
in the box of night that
your brain becomes.
Harm migrates across
the swampy distances
of your mouth.
Your body, merely grass
distorted by the wind
raking over a hill.
There is a script for
such chaos, though it
can never be remembered,
this occult confusion
that disguises
itself as clarity.
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Evening
for Maria
Blue twilight
is the heir of colour.
Godless, this suburban night
is almost heavenly.
We are justified by love;
each day a room we home to.
from Outside (Salt Publishing, 2011).
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Phil Brown’s Il Avilit
2011/12/14
Phil Brown was born in Surrey in 1987. He graduated from the University of Warwick in 2008 and now works as a secondary school English teacher in London. In 2009 he was shortlisted for the Crashaw Prize and won an Eric Gregory Award in 2010. He has had his work published in Magma, Pomegranate, Dove Release: New Flights and Voices (Worple Press, ed. David Morley), Dr. Rhian Williams’ The Poetry Toolkit (Continuum, 2009), The Salt Book of Younger Poets (Salt Publishing, ed. Roddy Lumsden) and the forthcoming Lung Jazz: The Oxfam book of Younger British Poets (ed. Todd Swift) and Coin Opera 2 (Sidekick Books, ed. Jon Stone). He is the Poetry Editor for the online magazine and chapbook publisher, Silkworms Ink.

“Phil Brown’s Il Avilit moves forcefully between the noise and disorder of the modern world, picking through the debris of the many lives we lead, leaving a trail of perfectly poised and fiercely observed poems. Dejected teachers, low-life pub landlords, faithless lovers, libertines and heroes populate this piercing and quick-witted debut, where darkness and regret linger at the corner of the pages, reminding us that an urgent clock ticks with our every step.
Whilst the poems go toe-to-toe with the big subjects of lust, loss and deception, the collection remains savvy, upfront and entertaining. Brown’s poems seek to confide in their reader with precise and carefully-measured words in their ear, finding their form and shape in persistent and surprising ways.”
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“Ink spilled from a dark wingtip overhead … with pitiless skill this shade of Baudelaire unmakes his life and lays it out for our delectation – a casual gift, a rarefied vision, a human sacrifice.”
– Hugo Williams
“Phil Brown’s poems jump across the page, play with language and meaning, and interrogate – thumb in collar – our multifarious, simultaneous worlds. From Sir Gawain on the Northern Line to the sleazebag publican – from Chiron in Southend to an American president on his deathbed – these poems blend urban, virtual, and mythical experience through a sharply observant eye, fizzing like intellectual fireworks as they go.”
– Katy Evans-Bush
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A Minor Offence
It wasn’t theft as such that night,
we tried to pay, had a train to catch.
No jobs were lost over the matter
I’m sure, just two coffees
and a slice of pie.
Worse crimes are committed
every second. Three murders
at least during the time it
took to read this poem.
At least.
Still, as I skim through
the underground, I offer
my seat to an elderly
or disabled woman
and hope that God was watching.
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Cane Hill
Averos Compono Animos
The soggy floor sags under us
as though walking on a gloved hand
over a patchwork of spread newspapers stained sepia
by years
dustily detailing what the Russians were up to.
The cast safety of our torchlight
projects Venn diagrams in which to step.
Embarrassed to be eighteen and afraid, I am coaxed
into trying on a jacket hanging solo in a balsa closet.
Smell of dust and piss as it grips
my shoulders like an angry parent.
Screams held in stone tape
teased out by kicked cans and footfall,
our fingers trace the braille
of sodden wood and soft walls.
We last an hour in all
before returning to our torn corner of fence.
A silent ride home, rifling through our loot:
three syringes, a nurse’s coat baring a Latin motto,
a duty rota dated ’82 and a small pile
of clumsy polaroids:
the cold chamber, the smashed window, the pew
barnacled with moss
and me in a too-small jacket.
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High Down
Harry Baker, who the alphabet placed
next to me in Physics lessons
in that wooden room festooned with equations.
His masculine sway across class, always late
always proud of his knuckles’ cuts
caught from walls or often hand-dryers.
Harry, with whom I shared little time,
but watched and ridiculed as he flitted
from trend to trend with the years
– a constant reinvention of clothes
hung on his Olympic swimmer’s physique,
his eyebrows sheared to a barcode, then pierced.
Harry whose voice blackened with time,
whose re-imagined ancestry accessorised
with his final angry guise.
You made the papers Harry, made them all,
made him see you weren’t afraid,
and I wonder how it felt going in.
All Harry left of the other boy
is a dwindling shrine of flowers topped up yearly
by a dwindling group of teens in their twenties.
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The Libertine at Lunch
Ulysses’ first fuck was at thirteen
in a van bound for Wandsworth.
The bitch retched at his piquant spit,
he was the ultimate incarnation;
the third restoration of a forgotten figure
in a world about to end.
An East London media consultant corroborated
that he was seen sipping by the window of a tapas bar.
Declining to rise, unable to reproduce,
smoking, quiet, the hungry boy
only arose for afternoon drinks between meds.
His recent self-pity directed by Pinot,
the music within his spleen was dim
following a night with Mandy.
This fall through time was pulling him to madness.
Too high a price to change history,
the tiny chaos of every morning.
The announcement was made on Friday,
he was found in Melbourne
violating a probation order.
Our Ulysses, short, flamboyant rebel dressed in
neon splashes,
will always be welcome back for another interview.
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Broken In
New recruits are broken in on Tuesdays
being the easy shift to be shown the ropes.
During this time, you will be told how to:
give change, push promotions, bag ice
bottle-up, wipe surfaces, pour Guinness,
check ID, work a till, be bought a drink.
You will be informally tested on these criteria:
a) Do you smoke? b) are you a thief?
c) will you let the bouncers touch you?
d) do you smile? e) are you poor?
f) are you funny?
g) will you have sex with the management?
If the other girls have already begun to hate you
then you are pretty enough to work here.
I had none of these qualities
but Adam put in a word.
from Il Avilit (Nine Arches Press, 2011).
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Victoria Bean’s Caught
2011/12/13
Victoria Bean is an artist and a member of the Arc Editions group. Her work has been collected by the Tate, the V&A, and shown at the Courtauld Institute of Art, while her poems have appeared in The Spectator and Poetry Review Salzburg. She currently works in a voluntary capacity with Young Offenders.
She spent a year in Horseferry Road Magistrate’s Court in central London, recording in verse the high-drama and low-comedy of the English justice system.
Caught (Smokestack Books, 2011) is her first collection – a unique take on everyday life in a busy courtroom and its cast of thieves, drunks, kerb-crawlers and dealers who come before the bench each day in despair, bewilderment and indifference. All human life is here – the strong and the weak, the hopeless and hapless, the users and losers, the innocent and guilty, the banged-up and the free. She lives in London.

“Incisive, witty, compassionate and captivating, Victoria Bean’s poems are short, sharp shocks that capture the human face of crime and punishment. A gem.”
– David Jenkins
“… a humbling & poignant collection, & that rare thing: poetry of witness, poetry as social document.”
– Alan Morrison, The Recusant
“This is a remarkable book, breathtaking in its artistry and its clarity.”
– Richard Price
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Oh oh
You said the f word you said the c word
you said you were on your way to Wembley
you said I’m hard, I’m hard, I could have you
you said you don’t remember any of it
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Boy with a knife
If you walk out of here today
arm yourself only with these words:
keep your freedom.
Keep watching those cartoons
your father says you like.
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Feast
Stand up please.
We can’t send you to jail
just because you’re hungry
and it’s cold outside,
however, you will stay in custody
until you’ve had your lunch.
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The benefits of a real fire
The judge says you’re on a hopeless, homeless spiral
but when you set that bin alight
you had some warmth
and for a moment
a bit of a welcoming glow.
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Fifteen years on crack
Beautiful boy
cheekbones sculpted by
sweet pink crystals still dissolving
the plump padding of his youth
He uses car stereos as currency
but wants a second chance
for the last time,
for the hundredth time.
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Ostraka
Muie and Mosh in the public gallery
with their post code surnames
gouged and scrawled
in vandals’ Braille
a universal hand writes
we were here, we were here, we were here,
and names get carved in sharp angled letters
because cursive font is tricky
where the wood grain won’t give.
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I’ll stand if you don’t mind
I don’t want this man to represent me
I want to represent myself
I’ll remain standing
if you don’t mind.
from Caught (Smokestack Books, 2011).
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Tim Cockburn’s Appearances in the Bentinck Hotel
2011/12/12
Tim Cockburn was born in 1985 in Banbury, Oxfordshire, and raised in Nottingham. He studied Fine Art and Creative Writing at the Norwich School of Art and Design, and holds an MA from the University of East Anglia in Creative Writing. He lives and works in Nottingham.

“Reading these poems there is a sense that, through ‘the sneakiness of words’, their tantalising truths are continuing partly to elude us – when ‘no’ touches ‘yes’, a dream solidifies on waking, coffee dregs yield one’s reflection, or the song you didn’t think to remember renews its hold on you.
Their highly-tuned awareness comes not out of introspection, but attentiveness, and also a real affection for the ‘cheerful stabs of flair among the serious junk’ of the world. Dry ice, microwaves, lager tops: all have their limelight in the mind, but there is nothing glib or cheaply-won about how the temporary or everyday become the emblem of a thought. Cockburn’s poems realise this time and again, with the sureness of an Anglepoise lamp that ‘throws its one enquiry’ into moments that, though private, are also the ones we most meaningfully share.”
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“Admiring another writer is always a mixture of pleasure and pain, and it’s pretty much my highest praise that as I read these deeply glowing, profoundly enjoyable poems I was muttering out loud: Damn it he’s right. He’s right. He’s right. He’s right. He’s right.”
– Luke Kennard
“Tim Cockburn is a poet of skill, risk, and imagination. He borrows a wryness of observation, and a resigned, poignant sadness of predicament, from the Movement, but his poems are most impressive for the way they create a lifting sensation, a disarming feeling of romantic urgency, uncertainty and precariousness.”
– Jack Underwood
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Expansion on a Microwave Warning Sticker
Check standing items frequently and stir.
Leave nothing unattended (this is in case
delayed eruptive boiling should occur).
Take her, she loves you, yes? Within a year
or two she’ll miss the danger, miss the chase.
She doesn’t now? Check frequently and stir.
Wear lovers through or change as you prefer;
if you won’t replace because you can replace
delayed eruptive boiling may occur.
Conviction, kindness, these things drain to where
so surely, so like colour from a face?
They may return. Check frequently or stir.
Life is flux, the manic screens infer,
invite it into yours, or in its place
delayed eruptive boiling will occur.
Better to wait on stubborn water, or
affect its leaping, when in either case
you could be burned (stress could be)? Waters, stir.
Delayed, eruptive: boiling must occur.
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A Rave in North Norfolk
For Laura
After the rave the steamed-up Peugeots
that, nightlong, blunted the field’s edge
slunk off one by one like a flagging picket,
leaving a stillness of litter-strewn hedges
the waterfowl dared enter back into.
On the lawn tall shadows tucked stickered decks
into retracted back seats, whilst the few
who remained in the lamp-lit mill slept,
not noticing how like kicked up sediment
settling the displaced calm restored
itself around them, or how, beyond the lane,
the shallow-pooled stretches sharpened:
the coloured smudge of ballast and gorse
beside a decelerating train.
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Appearances in the Bentinck Hotel
Sometimes in going to pick something up,
however casually certain your fingers it is one thing,
looking may show it to be another,
just as sometimes in telling someone you love them,
however casually certain your tongue the words are true,
on the ear they may fall as forced or artificial,
and in saying them you may come to realise you don’t,
or not as you thought, and it will seem
a kind of sneakiness on the part of the words,
as it does on the part of my lager, when playing pool
I swig from it and it is not my lager
but your lager top, or even in coming to write a poem,
when it shrugs at you from the page and says,
No poem here, only the bones of one at best,
and those you reject as too deliberate or too cute,
since always it is possible that for forty minutes
exactly my lager is a lager, on my ears on my tongue
to the touch I love you, and this is the Bentinck Hotel.
from Appearances in the Bentinck Hotel (Salt Publishing, 2011).
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Read ‘Deco’ and ‘Reminder about the songs currently in the charts’
at Eyewear.
Read ‘Immediately on Waking’ on George Szirte’s blog.
Read ‘Poem’ and ‘Panthers’ at Selected Poems.
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Lawrence Durrell’s Bitter Lemons
2011/12/12
“Journeys, like artists, are born and not made. A thousand differing circumstances contribute to them, few of them willed or determined by the will—whatever we may think. They flower spontaneously out of the demands of our natures—and the best of them lead us not only outwards in space, but inwards as well. Travel can be one of the most rewarding forms of introspection…
These thoughts belong to Venice at dawn, seen from the deck of the ship which is to carry me down through the islands to Cyprus; a Venice wobbling in a thousand fresh-water reflections, cool as a jelly. It was as if some great master, stricken by dementia, had burst his whole colour-box against the sky to deafen the inner eye of the world. Cloud and water mixed into each other, dripping with colours, merging, overlapping, liquefying, with steeples and balconies and roofs floating in space, like the fragments of some stained-glass window seen through a dozen veils of rice-paper. Fragments of history touched with the colours of wine, tar, ochre, fire-opal and ripening grain. The whole at the same time being rinsed softly back at the edges into a dawn sky as softly as circumspectly blue as a pigeon’s egg.
Mentally I held it all, softly as an abstract painting, cradling it in my thoughts—the whole encampment of cathedrals and palaces, against the sharply-focused face of Stendhal as he sits forever upon a stiff-backed chair at Florian’s sipping wine: or on that of a Corvo, flitting like some huge fruit-bat down these light-bewitched alleys…
The pigeons swarm the belfries. I can hear their wings across the water like the beating of fans in a great summer ballroom. The vaporetto on the Grand Canal beats too, softly as a human pulse, faltering and renewing itself after every hesitation which marks a landing-stage. The glass palaces of the Doges are being pounded in a crystal mortar, strained through a prism. Venice will never be far from me in Cyprus—for the lion of Saint Mark still rides the humid airs of Famagusta, of Kyrenia.
It is an appropriate point of departure for the traveller to the Eastern Levant…”
— Lawrence Durrell, Bitter Lemons (Faber & Faber)
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On heat and hemispheres by Kona Macphee
2011/12/08
Recently, I re-read the 1999 poetry collection Wicked Heat by Australian poet Kevin Hart. The book doesn’t belie its title: on the contrary, I was reminded of just how much heat-related imagery the poems contain.
I haven’t lived in Australia since before Hart’s book was written, yet his poems bring back all kinds of recollections: the scorch of a sun-roasted vinyl car seat on the back of my bare legs; the way my flip-flops (or, to be Aussie, “thongs”) would get stuck in the melting car park tarmac at the local shops; those scorching, insomniac mosquito-haunted nights spent lying on a coverless bed, turning the pillow every few minutes in the forlorn hope of finding some coolness and refusing to open the windows in case a night-prowling huntsman spider came in.
When I first moved to the UK in September 1995, I lost a summer, skipping directly from southern hemisphere spring to northern hemisphere autumn. Somehow this absent summer seemed symbolic of the bigger climatic adjustment I’d made, from a city where serious frost was a rarity to one where a day of twenty-six degrees centigrade was “a scorcher”. Indeed, a few years later I was to write, of my arrival into Heathrow, that the landing plane’s engines spilled “a last Australian heat”.
It might be tempting to conclude that life in the Northern Hemisphere – where I’ve done all of my “proper” writing – has had a big effect on my creative landscape. For example, just for fun I once ran the text of my first poetry collection through a word-cloud generator that emphasised the most frequently-used words. The thing I immediately noticed was the prevalence of chilly words – ice, snow, frost, winter, cold. Since then, cold-as-metaphor continues to crop up regularly in my writing, and interestingly, certain words have become proxies for coldness in a decidedly un-Australian way – “North” and “January”, for example. Is my location really the source of these images? I’m not so sure. Isolation and loss tend to figure more strongly in my writing than (for example) rage and passion, so maybe the cold imagery is an expression of an inner emotional landscape as much as, or indeed more than, an outer physical one.
There’s a subtext to my pondering all of this right now: I’ll shortly be visiting Australia, for the first time since 1997, to be reminded of the “wicked heat” of my first quarter-century. On my journey, I’ll be accompanied by the uneasy knowledge that it was shortly after (or – to introduce a note of writerly superstition – perhaps resulting from) that last brief visit to Melbourne that my writing life began.
Now that I’m sixteen years a Northerner, I don’t know what to expect from the imminent return to the Land Downunder. Perhaps what I’ll be noticing this time, as the plane makes its final approach, is not the heat spilling from the engines but the tendrils of high-altitude frost melting away inside the plane’s double-glazed windows.
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Born in London in 1969, Kona Macphee grew up in Australia. She flirted with a range of occupations including composer, violinist, waitress and motorcycle mechanic. She took up robotics and computer science, which brought her to Cambridge as a graduate student in 1995.
She now lives in beautiful Perthshire, where she works as a freelance writer and moonlights as the co-director of a software and consultancy company. She has been writing poems since 1997, and received an Eric Gregory Award in 1998. Her first collection, Tails, was published by Bloodaxe in 2004. Her second book of poems, Perfect Blue (Bloodaxe, 2010) is now available. Visit Perfect Blue’s Bloodaxe page, Perfect Blue’s dedicated website and Kona’s website.
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Ross Wilson’s The Heavy Bag
2011/12/07
Ross Wilson was born in 1978 and raised in Kelty, a former mining village in west Fife. He has written three novels, reviewed for Books in Canada and co-edited Almost an Island: A New Anthology of Fife Writings. He recently worked with a team of writers on The Happy Lands, a feature film, in which he had an acting role. Awarded a Hawthornden Fellowship in 2004, his short stories and poems have appeared in many magazines and anthologies. A national schoolboy boxing champion and internationalist, he has worked in warehouses, factories, hotels, kitchens and various other places. His first collection, The Heavy Bag, was published in November 2011. It is available from the publisher, Calder Wood Press, at £5 plus postage.

“This collection marks the emergence of a refeshing new voice in poetry. Some of his work explores subjects seldom, if ever, described in poems. He writes with great insight, characteristic honesty and a strong emotional involvement with people and their lives.”
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The ABC
(Amateur Boxing Club)
Wee Barry was first – his first bout.
Three rounds with a twelve year old double.
Mirror images until
the glass shattered like a dream
and reality battered his wee face red.
Barry cried in the changing room:
ma nose hurts like hell!
Only a point in it, Alec said,
ye done well.
Then there was Sean.
Features ghosted with nerves,
Sean flushed vomit and
seconds out, minutes later, was hit
out of time. A wee one asked: did it hurt?
No! The pain
was several inches south of the blow.
Sean didn’t bleed:
blood bloomed his cheeks.
Lanky Colin jabbed and crossed, dangling
danger on the end of two rods,
a smug grin as each jab went in and in.
In the closing seconds a hook sank into
his burger-Coke lined guts. Winded,
he grappled a pummelling desperado, until
the bell sounded, sweet as his girl the night before.
Colin won by a score:
nineteen hits to four.
Next, John. A Scottish champion six years
before nightlife blackened his eyes
darker than any glove ever did.
Body hardened by Saughton’s gym,
arms colourful as an exotic bird’s wings,
rage carried him into the ring, through two
wild rounds into a third. Drained as a
pint glass, a white towel fluttered
to save him from himself.
Dean! Dean always broke the circle training –
facing a mirror as the rest faced one another.
I-pod in ear, unable to hear instruction,
Dean danced and vaulted the ropes!
But a boot snagged and tumbled him
and laughter bellowed around the ring.
It was hell for Dean after that. Pride punctured,
body blows deflated the rest.
And his record fell: four wins, now a loss.
Last: eighteen, unbeaten, Andy sat
one a table staring at boots that run miles
every night they don’t skip rope in a gym.
No one will fight him: too much power, skill.
There are whispers of other countries;
talk of a blue vest.
‘I’ve no passport,’
he told Alec.
’Your passport’s talent n’ will.’
Weekends Alec drives a transit van full
of bleeding noses, bruised ribs, battered egos.
Sixty years old and so alive his breath
is a winter plume against a darkened windscreen.
Half way cross-country tonight.
Tomorrow: a roof with hammer and slate.
Alec smiles into a mirror full of boys
sleepy with dreams or dreaming awake:
the future is full of girls and fighting.
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The Way John Went Out
In memory of John Gray
I had you in my corner a few years,
talking me into, and through, pain.
Weekends, you’d take me into
Edinburgh and Glasgow to train;
mid-week, we worked out in Rosyth.
Days in-between, I ran alone.
We were about the same height then:
Five three, flyweights. I, fourteen, all bone,
you, a trim forty, fitter than anyone
in the gym, until I caught up, like time
caught us, six years later.
A six foot welterweight that day
we met, books tucked under what had been
a left hook, specs on a never broken nose.
I was awoken that day
like a brawler too clumsy to duck
the surprise counter of your news.
The best punches come from nowhere.
This one hit before we could begin.
A doctor stepped between us, waving it all off;
a timekeeper beat the slow count out of days
before a bell could ring.
And it was a daze to stumble into,
like those nights when I’d run alone
in the dark of a wood, no stool to rest on,
and no voice in the corner where I once stood
tired and bloodied with your hand
flying my hand like the kites
we were both high as, walking
down the steps of Meadowbank Stadium, 1993.
You came in with nothing,
you said to me, you went out a champion.
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Anithir Season
In memory of Alec “Spangles” Hunter (1936 – 1995)
When they found Marciano’s body
strapped in the crashed plane seat,
someone said start counting, he’ll get up.
He always did, when he was down.
I remembered that story the day
Spangles went down.
A sweet tooth behind a bark:
thir’ll be no fuckin’ swearin in this gym!
A face marked by 626 fights.
At 59, he went down refereeing a bout
with no one to replace him to take up a count
that went by so fast we had our doubts
it was over.
That’s anithir season yeh’v wastit!
He’d say when I’d return to the gym
years after my last fight,
and with more appetite
for the atmosphere than the blows
that carved and cut and shaped him
like a pumpkin fired within.
Anithir season wastit
as though he thought I’d be back.
As though to say: he’s just resting.
I was young after all.
Now, I hit harder with the weight
time packs into a punch, and slower,
with energy that saps like the sweat
I watch drip away, wondering
what Spangles would say
about this new club full of women
and bairns and music – attitudes
shaped by the seasons he’s been gone.
His voice plays on – and old record
scratched and scored as his face,
and turning in my memory:
This isnae a fuckin’ youth club!
As if to say: this isn’t a game.
You don’t play boxing.
Months after the old club
was knocked down and out of existence
the headline read:
Final Round for Boxing Legend.
That was 1995.
This is another country, another gym
with the same fighting spirit alive
in twelve year olds I watch spar
and prepare fir anithir season.
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The ABC 2
James came and turned
away from a right cross
in pain and walked across
the street for a bottle.
Craig put on two stone of muscle,
boxed a man naturally heavier than him
and discovered the truth in:
there’s nowhere lonelier than the ring.
Stewart had talent but lacked will,
won a few fights, missed nights
training, got a girl pregnant and
no one knows where he went.
Graham went sixteen and two,
won a few district titles, a national,
boxed international and
died inhaling aerosol.
Lesley was a tom-boy lesbo bitch
according to a few folk before
she learned to fight back and
flattened Fat Mary on her back.
Alan wasn’t very good – he got better,
lost a few before he won,
never won much but
got there.
All six were in the same year.
James is on the dole now.
Craig is a bouncer.
No one knows where Stewart is.
Graham is in Kirkford Cemetary.
Lesley is at the university.
And Alan runs the local ABC
three nights a week.
from The Heavy Bag (Calder Wood Press, 2011).
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