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Victoria Field: Five Poems

Victoria Field

Victoria Field is a writer and poetry therapist based in Cornwall, United Kingdom. She has two poetry collections, Olga’s Dreams and Many Waters – the latter based on a one year writing residency at Truro Cathedral. Her latest publication is a pamphlet in collaboration with Penelope Shuttle and Caroline Carver, October Guests. Her third co-edited book on therapeutic writing is due from Jessica Kingsley Press in November 2010. She is an Associate Artist of Hall for Cornwall who have produced two of her plays.
Tree of Doors

Ancient oak tree at Trelissick … Hen dherowenn orth Trelesik …
Centuries ago, someone’s father thumbed an acorn,
still cradled in its cupule, into the yielding earth,
to be part of a Cornish hedge undulating over fields
in time to the tides below. Now, you stand alone,
trunk hollow as old bone, tip-toe on phalanges
of roots, tilting on the hillside, gateway between worlds.
When I open you, Tree of Doors, men come rushing
towards me, holy and worldly. (The secret name
of the oak tree is father). You’re sacred in every forest,
grove and garden of the world, branches grasping
sky-god Jupiter, thunder-god, Thor. Here, earthed Druids,
Men of Oak, love moss and damp, this milky sun and you.

Mistletoe is the divine touching your trunk, turning planks
to boats, connecting Cornwall to the sea-kingdoms
of the setting west. St Columba prays to the wind like a gull
in his oak-built chapel. St Brendan strengthens his coracle
with oak and, God-tossed by waves, conjures New Worlds.
Emperors, victorious in Rome wear crowns of your leaves.
Like any father, you stand like a God in the field
so thunder touches you first, lightening thuds through you.
Like any daughter, I suffer too. Are they your long fingers
grasping the ground? Bysow hir ow talhenna an dor…
Or my own, half-wood, half-bone? I’m thirsty for roots.
Syhes, syhes rag gwreydh. And I close you, my Tree of Doors.
First published in Poetry Cornwall (October, 2009).
A Haunting
St Marys, Isles of Scilly
The high bracken is full of spirits – its prehistoric
scent takes me home to childhood in Kent,
blackberrying, beating back the sap-filled stems
to reach brambles no one else can be bothered with,
fearing, and longing to see, the deft flick of an adder.
The spirits of that village are here now,
clear as day in the island light that’s half sky,
half water – Nanny, old Nunc, Mrs Noakes
and Mr Palmer, Mr and Mrs Monk, those girls –
Michelle and Maureen – none living now –
(not as the mainland understands living), but present
in these dense acres of green where I’m lost,
surrounded by sea, not knowing
where I’m going – nor quite where I’ve been.
First published in Quadrant (Australia) (June, 2010).
     Willows never forget how it feels to be young.
                                                     William Stafford
A single rowing boat moves slowly through
the silted shallows of a river once welcoming
ships of the world. Your name was a byword for tin
and abundance – now the guidebook calls you
‘much decayed’, a place for walking old dogs,
antique shops and early closing. How
does it feel when history has harvested
the best of you – to be a basket of memories
too long for the living? All around, willows bend,
graceful in their sleepy fullness. Lazy ripples
fade away. Nothing is ever as it was –
these passing ghosts, my sad, reflected face
in stilling waters and, on my fingers,
the unexpected tang of salt.
First published in Acumen (September, 2008).
Dead Beech Tree at Trebah

     Trebah is a sub-tropical garden in Cornwall, situated on the
     Helford estuary. On 1st June 1944, a regiment of 7,500 men
     of the 29 US Infantry Division embarked from Trebah Beach
     for the D-Day assault on Omaha Beach in Normandy, where
     they suffered grievous casualties

I don’t need to be told not to sow
for three days at the beginning of March –
all my days these days are blind days, the moon’s
face, blank and white, looks in from time to time –
doesn’t say a word, so I don’t hear her come
and don’t hear her go – night and day are all
the same shade of grey in this country
of the dead. Winters never end in the garden
where everyone’s blind, standing stock-still
on our shallow roots each side of the valley,
aching for spring. None of us speak though
we hear signs of life – voices of people and birds,
distant hum of boats and planes, wind
stroking the leaves. They tell me I’m naked
but how would I know – with no limbs left to wrap
round my trunk to test the touch of my skin or feel
for the moss-covered heartbeat of the tree
they can’t name or to prise loose chunks of bark
from the Monterey pine, let them fall heavy as slate,
cold as old armour from tanks rumbling down
the rapidly-poured concreted track – nor can I shake
a rich head of hair like the evergreen willow –
nothing moves in me now – no sap rises, no leaves fall,
no swinging branch to lift then drop a child down
to where things might go better – as we wanted them
to in nineteen forty four. Then, sunshine pulled desire
up from my roots, my leaves quivered and rose.
Girls of Cornwall bloomed all around, opened
to the young oaks of soldiers so full of promise,
responding with beauty – their thighs pink and silken
as spring magnolias, they flounced lip-sticked and frilled,
filled with the red lust of sudden rhododendrons –
whole minefields of blonde daffodil heads
on the slopes of these gardens – everything flourishing
until those goodbyes when hundreds of handkerchiefs
from a tree full of ghosts dropped sodden into the grass.
One uniformed man, tall as a pine, mysterious
as an ash tree in March, was mindful of memory.
He scarred me with his pocket knife – sap bleeding
through the date he wanted none to forget – gouging
my skin, sharing the pain of being here now, then,
a year soon only trees will remember, before running
from the enclosed garden of innocence, down to the sea
crossing to another world, one of lolling heads,
heavy as araucaria seeds, shrapnel sharp
as monkey puzzle leaves, the squelch of bodies
soft and open as toads in bamboo, tight knuckled
as bone on old branches – and beyond, furnaces
where people burn easy as seasoned wood,
jungles where, like the sudden death of a million
healthy oaks, men fall under the blows of those
who love cherry blossom. I don’t need to be told
not to sow for three days at the beginning of March –
I’m limbless, silent, scarred, dead from the neck up.
All my days are blind days. I can’t see the sun nor feel
on my branches the blood red of a passing robin’s breast.
First published in Artemis (May, 2009).
Opening the Gate
In five years, we had just two, true conversations.
The first expansive, outside in sunshine, marriage
on both our minds – we were wedding guests
on a perfect May day, everyone joyful, dressed up,
bubbling with mild hysteria. You acknowledged
a wistfulness, too, for those of us not, or not yet,
(and, now, never can be) – happily spliced.
At least that’s what I read between your easy banter
and serious discussion of churches and religion – like me,
you seemed on the edge – half in half out
but yearning too, wanting to know more about
that one-way gate, the jewelled road tumbling towards
an amazing light and open arms. The second time
we talked one-to-one, was in winter, a cold, dead day
between Christmas and New Year. Kind friends
brightened the darkness with a party and games
but you, subdued, were not quite there –
told me it had been a dreadful year.
More and more, you said, you’d been in the cathedral
asking the questions it understands so well
but finding no answers. ‘A permanent solution
to a temporary problem,’ someone said, afterwards,
not seeing the solution’s already a given –
the dilemma’s not why, but how, what and when –
the why-nots of love, work and friends, irrelevant –
they’ll all soon be gone, in any case. Not a moment of madness –
you choreographed a small theatre of action – and then?
Was it a drop through cool dark to a nothingness of total peace?
Or did you spiral skyward past blossom and birds
to the embrace of a bride, and the blue of her miraculous eyes?
First published in Scryfa Volume 10 (2007).